A little over two years ago I got this bright idea to go to college. I decided I wanted a degree and should have one if I was going to continue providing childcare for children as I needed at least an associates degree in education to be a head teacher in a daycare classroom. I knew I wouldn’t do it out of the home forever, as I am not the type of person who likes my house a mess, and we all know children make messes. I signed up and paid for online courses, spent hours reading, making forms, taking notes and online exams, and talking to my online professor through chats. I realized my information could be stolen and checked a digital rights management program to keep my information protected from others copying, viewing or screen grabbing. Then I wondered if this even mattered with those who have flash cookies installed on their computers as they were getting my information anyway. These scare me. As a computer user who is on the computer almost full-time I don’t want to visit necessary websites and have the websites creators storing information about what I do. They can possibly get my credit card information when paying my monthly fees, or other information I do not want others to know. Clearing my cookies with my browser does not help which I didn’t know, so going to a website like Adobe is how I would need to delete these.
So back to my online training. I quit. I didn’t have any motivation after almost finishing my first semester. My brain doesn’t function like it use to, maybe mommy brain, too many other thoughts running through my head. I signed an online signature validation to discontinue and felt like a total failure. I was part of a statistic now. The big student drop out rate. But I soon realized I am a mom doing the best I can to raise my children. They inspire me every single day to be the best I am. No schooling, job or degree is going to change who I am; a mom to two beautiful children who I love dearly.