Ever had a feeling of sadness, unhappiness or like you just can’t cope? Unfortunately I have and it continued for a long and difficult 18 months. After Gavyn was born I was diagnosed with postpartum depression, yet declined treatment. I didn’t want to acknowledge I had anything wrong with me, until it was too late. My postpartum depression progressed into clinical depression; an illness I didn’t want to get help for as I thought “nothing is wrong with me.” All I had were negative thoughts including guilt from my child almost passing away; how could anyone distinguish what is hurting me, besides me. Nobody loves me or cares. These are the thoughts that ran through my mind, until I finally reached out to get help but not without losing my loved ones. This was on my part though, not theirs.
I pushed my husband, friends and family away. Lost the job I succeeded at, the home I built from top to bottom, my life. I felt hopeless. I thought I could cope alone, I was mistaken. Depression affects millions of American’s, understand that you are not alone, there is support. Talk to anyone; family, counselors, friends, loved ones, online depression support groups such as Depression Connect, it doesn’t matter who. It will bring you comfort and happiness once again.
If I had known there were supporting communities like Depression Connect out there when my life felt like it was over, I believe it would have been much easier. To talk to others going through the same feelings as you can make a difficult situation seem comforting. Just to share how you feel, read stories and connect with others would have been wonderful. I hope my story has inspired you to get support if you are going through a tough time; not just with depression. Maybe you’re feeling grief from the loss of a loved one or feeling lost from another diagnosis, even abuse.